The clock shows the time of 0146 hours and if my
calculations are correct I have been unable to sleep for the last 3 hours. So now
I have decided to make myself a nice cuppa tea with no sugar and semi-skimmed
milk without waking anyone else up which in itself should be a major
achievement for a clumsy person like me. So well done to me, yay(!)
0222 hours: still unable to sleep, I have tried all the
techniques imaginable from reading to listening to sleepy music – none seem to
have an effect on me as if I am immune to the whole concept of sleeping just
like the way I am immune to the whole idea of making friends
0330 hours: just finished watching a documentary on diamond mining,
I have no idea how I got myself there; one minute I was listening to the noise
of rainfall in order fall asleep, next minute I am watching 45 mins long
documentary. Watching this documentary made me realise how we are so much alike
diamonds, if you think about it we all have to go through intense pressure and
heat to show what we can withstand and once that pressure is finally released
into thin air we look back and be grateful for all the things that we overcame
0345 hours: staring at the empty wall in dark may not be too
fun during the day time but when it is night you can project your imagination
into this wall and enjoy your own time with your imagination. This reminds me of
my favourite quote by Einstein: “Imagination is more important than knowledge.
For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination
embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.”
(yes, I googled that) Without imagination we would not have things such as
airplanes or colours or even food...
0412 hours: passed out there a bit while projecting my
imagination on this blank empty wall of my room but I was woken up by what
sounded like foxes attacking a cat- which is quite common at this time. Cat meows
for help but there is no response from other cats or humans so I decide to go
out and shoo off the foxes and save this poor creature
0429 hours: the cat was actually a badger, I never thought I
would see a badger in urbanised London but it was an exciting sight. A badger
seemed to have attacked one of the fox on the front lobe of its left side brain
and it seemed to be bleeding a bit. I stood there narrating this carnage to
myself and felt like as if I was David Attenborough but lot younger and browner
and shorter. Now the fight is over and two enemies have departed their own way.
For me the badger was clear winner. I never understood the need for Badger cull
and I am quite glad badger cull expansion did not happen in this part of London.
They seem like peaceful animal until you scare them, then they are just like
any other animals.
0538 hours: on my 4th cup of tea with same
teabag, I am not too keen on the idea of throwing away teabags after one use, I
think they should be reused. Personally, I have found out that you can reuse
the same teabag 6 times and still get the same sensation (obviously it will not
be as strong but you will still fill the kick). For the last hour or so, I have
delved my mind into researching about some of the most inspirational people in
this world. According to some website Gandhi and Mandela are seen as the most inspirational
people to walk on this planet and I think I agree with that statement. Both men
rose up against the oppression of their race within their own country by the
British constitution and did a very good job on making their country what it is
now.
0602 hours: Sunrise beacons through the curtain and I get a
glimpse of what awaits me outside this room, soon everyone will be up and I
have to pretend as if I am sleeping in order to hide my insomnia so there is no
awkward conversation about my sleep during the family dinner.
0645 hours: I have washed my face and brushed my teeth and
now I am ready for the day ahead of me. Nothing as such has been planned yet
but lets see what the day has planned for me. Everyone still seems to be
snoring away.
0732 hours: No sign of any people waking up yet but I do
hear my parents mumble in the room next to me, maybe they are up now. I have done
my bed and I am all ready to greet them with good morning soon.
0803 hours: I am going for a little jog to relax my mind and
just let my legs do all the work, this seems to be a therapeutic technique for
me which started as a recommendation from my therapist has been intertwined
with my daily lifestyle now
0858 hours: finally home, everyone is up and breakfast is
ready. Just got out of shower and now I am ready to start a new day.
1202 hours: after long discussion to myself I have decided
to blog my insomniac diary.
Thank you for reading.
Bye bye my fellow readers. Stay tuned for my next big night
in with myself.
Insomnia sufferer
